A man infected with HIV by his ex-lover has sobbed profusely while telling a Sydney judge about the "haunting pattern" he experiences daily dealing with "internal wounds and struggles that will never heal".
Martin Peter Jaksic, 31, pleaded guilty in March to recklessly causing grievous bodily harm to his former partner, who read his victim impact statement aloud at a sentence hearing in the NSW District Court on Friday.
"I'm reminded every single day of the struggles and barriers I have to face, of the devastation and embarrassment I have to live with," the man, who can't be identified, told the court through tears.
"Every day I anxiously sit and I wait till 8.30pm (when) I'm reminded to take my HIV medications.
"It slows down the progression of this virus.It doesn't cure it. Every single night I wish it was different."
The man counted back the years, months and days to the cold, late evening that has left him "forever" affected.
"A small and insignificant moment of time that would change the direction of my life forever, three simple words that would turn my world completely upside down - I have HIV," he said.
"You can't physically see my injuries but I bear these internal wounds and struggles that will never heal.
"It's a haunting pattern and it can't be described."
The victim slammed Jaksic's betrayal, saying he should have been loved and protected by someone he trusted.
"Rather, I got a callous and ruthless person whose dishonest actions resulted in the transmission of HIV," he said.
"He made no reasonable effort to stop the prevention of a completely preventable disease.
"I never got an apology. I never got any sympathy from him for what he did to me.
"And for what he put me through, I will never be able to forgive him."
The victim, who began crying before the first word of his statement, said his network of family, friends and medical professionals was the only thing keeping him "fighting and surviving" to make sure "life is good again".
He said he was unable to trust anyone and his fun-loving nature, health and coping skills had been compromised.
"My relationships moving forward are tainted with suspicion and discrimination," the man said.
Jaksic was arrested by Australian Federal Police officers in January 2016 trying to board a flight out of Sydney.
He remains on bail and is listed for sentence before Judge Peter Zahra on September 26.